It is a comfort...and pulls me back from my obsessed thoughts...to remember the law of karma and the psychological equivalent to the physical law that every action has a reaction equal and opposite to it.
I call that "what goes around comes around." It may be the only infallible truth in my life...although, depending entirely on my spiritual condition, I have noticed that it doesn't seem to operate as much in others' lives as it does in mine...for which I do not hesitate to sit in righteous judgment.
It seems to me my life today is all about unlearning, about
detaching...detaching from self, from myself. Letting go. It's a stunner
to realize that to let go of something is to admit it...not only to speak
it in acceptance, but to admit it into my life as my own. In short, to let go
is to own it for only then can we laugh at ourselves for fearing it (holding it
dear) in the first place.
An even bigger surprise is realizing that I didn't know, off
the top of my head, what it was I was holding onto in order to let go of it!
That's why life is a "we" proposition.
One just can't get there from here alone, depending entirely
on our reasoning mind. Which is doubly true if we're fairly intelligent. My
superior intelligence (in my own mind) was the block to believing in God
originally...not that I didn't try. I just tried to believe by thinking on it,
using my reasoning mind to get it. We're blessed that our reasoning mind cannot
get us there. We must go beyond reason...by letting go, detaching, unlearning.
In the end, it's all about holding our nose and taking a
leap of faith. It matters not how many times I've had to take that leap of faith,
when I'm hanging out there in the ether, my reasoning mind will always say,
"Uh-oh." But I've always landed safe in the arms.
Thank You.
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