ON SEEKING ANSWERS OF MY OWN SELF

The journey to sovereignty of mind requires an inward migration, where we in a sense become refugees from our external nation, culture, economy, and civilization, even though we still live within its borders. We withdraw inwardly. -- Alexis Wright, an Aboriginal writer from Australia

I have found myself being led (fed?) by a self-demanding search within.

I started following the feeling of demand, and faster than I realized that it was happening, I found myself seeking, questioning, demanding answers of my own self.

No, it does not make sense...reasoning-mind sense...but the answer popped almost immediately: Follow Me...where and for what, I know not. Follow that.

When I read the Alexis Wright quote above, I knew I am on the right track, going in the right direction, and though I know not my destination, I know it is God's will, God's way.

Not to put too fine a point on it, but there just is no getting better than that! 

I am peaced.

God is so good to me...God is so good.

Thank you.

WITHOUT CEASING, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of April 8, 2015.]

I offered my ego to God to tame, to do with as he willed...the answer came back that the ego is mine to tame, to do with as I will...that’s the “free will” we are given before conception, at birth, throughout our life.

Our heart and soul we can give to God, but our ego is ours TO DISCIPLINE...that’s why we must needs seek still more spiritual growth daily, twice, thrice daily...”without ceasing.”

Thank you.

WE GO TO GOD FOR GOD...AND THAT IS ALL

Fear of dementia is with me. 

This I have learned: To deny our fear is to grow it ever deeper, ever darker...to welcome it is to be peaced...or to deny our fear is to grow ego-panic; to welcome it is to be lifted into God consciousness.

I am in the process of facing my fear this morning...my fear that dementia is with me. I have journaled about it, but now, for the first time, I have shared my fear with a friend. 

How I go forward determines whether I have peace of mind (God with me) or lack of peace (egoic fear driving me). 

An idea came to me a week or so back: I may start a spiritually based Happily Living With Dementia group. Our goal: To share our fears and its recovery with others who have dementia or the fear of dementia who seek the peace that passes understanding...God's will, God's way.

We could meet weekly to share our current personal fears and facts of living with and adjusting spiritually to dementia. And/or of our recovery...free of fret, worry and self-centered fear.  

Just as an aside, I am amazed at how many folks I know or know of who are dealing with dementia...nine or ten years ago I knew no one dealing with dementia or the fear of it.

Reminder: We go to God for God, and that is all...for that is All.

Thank you. 

LET GOD TAKE OVER, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of July 25, 2016.]

But I say unto you, * * * whosoever shall smite thee on the right cheek, turn to him the other also.... == Matthew 5:39

I know of no one, most especially myself, who hasn't (using good common sense) resisted that line upon hearing it...and not just hearing it for the first time, but every single time. Until we take God's time to ponder it; i.e., go into our quiet and open our self to a higher understanding.

My common sense led me to the realization that no one I know, friend or unfriend, would slap me upside the head. Talk about me behind my back, maybe...or, more likely, chew me a new one to my eyeballs...but not slap my face. Therefore, if someone did slap my face, I could reckon that this person was not dealing from a full deck...best to smile and turn the other cheek as I quietly walk away. In other words, resist not and high tail it.

There. Common sense can lead us to the fourth dimension, and we can let God take over from there.

Thank you.

PEACE IN THE MIDST OF A STORM

The occasions may only be momentary and we quickly move back into the harsh reality of the everyday, but their effects linger, suggesting that new creation is possible and that transformation can happen. --"Richard Rohr's Daily Meditation," April 9, 2026

"The occasions" are my so-called "blinding flashes of the obvious" which come when they come...not often and then a bunch at a time. We can take that as God's timing, not mine.

Those occasions do peace my jangled mind...my fear thoughts,

There is so much less-than going on in the world today...less-than the serenity available at any and all times. But how often do I avail myself of it, of a serene mind? Yet, an unpeaced mind is where all restlessness, unease. dis-ease begins.     

To be at peace in the midst of a storm, be it mental, physical, or spiritual, is to live God's will, God's way.

We can aim for that...God's will, God's way...but to hold out for that and only that is to hold our self out from God, it seems to me. Aiming for perfection is using our own mind to define perfection, and what is less able to do just that? Nada.

We each live God's will, God's way according to our own inner God-connection. There's our journey...to seek our own God connection. 

According to me, three days after we're dead, we'll still be seeking, and that's if we're doing it right,

Thank you.

WITH GRATITUDE AND GRACE, WE FEAR NOT

Today I know to face my fears since they are with me; but how I receive fear determines my peace of mind (God with me) or lack of peace (ego driving me).  Only a peaced mind can receive the inner truth. 

I need to welcome my fear. To deny it is to give it fear-growth...to welcome it is to give it peace-growth.

I seek the peace that passes understanding...God's will, God's way which seldom offers reason to the material mind. 

To reason is to make commonsense out of a problem. There is no commonsense in God's will, God's way...there is only God's will, God's way. 

Blinding flash of the obvious: We cannot bring God's will and way down to us, we must offer us up. 

Our very offer is evidence of the spiritual love we seek...then we experience the love flow to/from us.

Thank you.

BY GRACE AND BY GOD

It seems that everything that my material mind's eyes see and judge as 'good' or 'not good' are in the spiritual world's view the opposite of what I see and how I judge what I see.  

My very first lesson is my go-to always: To my mind back then, alcoholism was bad so I knew not to admit to it. Today, to my raised consciousness, alcoholism in God's care is my blessing and became my ticket to ride...as in, still more spiritual growth always.

We leave the alcohol behind, go to God in grace and gratitude and live happy/unhappy as God wills and self aligns...yet ever free.

This morning I am fearing dementia...Mom died with it, as did my sister, and I may be experiencing hints of it. I also have intense anxiety disorder which may be doing my fear-thinking for me.

Blinding flash of the obvious:  If dementia be Thy will for me, then dementia is my will for me.

If alcoholism can be a good thing, and it is to me today, then so can dementia be...by grace and by God, Thy will, Thy way.

Thank you.