That quote describes to a T how I am feeling today and have felt for the past days, weeks...month? I've lost count.
The welcome news to me is that I am not feeling panicked...not knowing what is to come when feeling utterly alone is a God-gift for certain-sure. I choose to believe that is the pearl we get in old age...when utterly alone is not a feeling, it is a fact!
I am the last one in my group of women still in "our" neighborhood...all the others have either moved into assisted living here on earth or in Heaven. God bless and keep them, and, not to put too fine a point on it, but God bless me, too!
I think that with a smile on my face...there's the fruit of my "still more spiritual growth." I'm at the place I lived in dread of in my younger years...i.e., being left all alone...and feeling gentle with it.
I think that with a smile on my face...there's the fruit of my "still more spiritual growth." I'm at the place I lived in dread of in my younger years...i.e., being left all alone...and feeling gentle with it.
My sister, my best friend in our growing-up years...whom I depended on more than either of us knew at the time...is short breaths away from dying. We have not been close in years, but I'm living our early years memories now, and my heart is filled with painful gratitude. I "know" my sister is leaving with peace in her heart...as good as can be expected according to me.
To go with God in our heart, our soul, our body and our brain is the pearl beyond price...and that is my grateful prayer for my sister.
Thank you.
P.S. I just learned that my sister passed at 2:30 this morning. My heart is graced with gratitude for having had her in my life, and my thoughts are weeping salty tears for not having her here anymore. You were my anchor, Jane. Rest in peace knowing you were...and are...loved.
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