FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY!

The following thank you prayer is from a post of mine of December 30, 2014: Thank you, God, that I want your will done in my life more than I want my own will done in my life no matter what. Open-ended. Knock yourself out, God. Do your thing. You got the power, use it....Amen

That fairly well describes me this morning...or how I'm feeling, like I've hit a brick wall and have not a clue what to do or how to do it. Not to put too fine a point on it, but I need the use of God's divine mind...now.

I am grateful that I know that is a feeling, and that whatever we are feeling, at the time is our eyebrows-up reality.

My reality this morning, then, is: Lost, alone, helpless, hopeless...wanting I know not what. Relief? Release? 

Many of my gifted truths flow to...and from...my mind. They touch me not. 

The picture blooms in my mind: Me, like a bear at hibernation time...with a want/need to find my own hidey-hole where I can curl up into a dreamless sleep and let my world pass.

To name my known cares fears: Me, with possible dementia hovering ever closer; the United States with the rigid, righteous and Right hovering ever closer; my sister at 91 with her death hovering ever closer; me left all alone...not wanting to die but afraid of living in today's world all alone.

Feel the fear and do it anyway...live! 

Thank you.