THE HIDDEN JOY OF FEAR...GOD'S PEARL

Blinding flash of the obvious: For all the recent feelings of terror I have experienced, with yet the possibility of a need to go through more, thank You. They have brought me...will ever bring me...closer to You...to the higher consciousness untapped within me.

Passing thought: Today I feel the inner joy of fear. Whaa?  Yes! Apparently, I am living the fact that Nothing Turns Me To God Faster Than Fear.

I have said, repeatedly, that very truth, that nothing turns me to God faster than fear, and I lived it...until now when I realize that "living it" has grown in a new direction.

They are useless words, "fear not," for fear lives on its own. But God, a power, or The Power, is greater than any feelings, facts or fantasies that fear uses, but does not own.

Since April 30th at 3:00 AM, I have experienced every scare tactic that I See Me has to throw...and God has never left me. I admit that it felt like it, but I inner knew that this, too, was God's will, God's way, and I don't even doubt that there is more to come. 

I will shake like an Aspen and cry like a wounded robin., but this I know: I will survive on the good side of God's will, God's way. The actual experience of God in our life counts.

There...that is close enough to perfect for me if not to my reasoning mind, which is firmly wedded to easy, effortless and rewarding...which is another gift of love and laugh.

Thank you.