Morning blinding flash of the obvious: My only wish is to be free of fear...the only way to be free of fear is to trust God...to trust God's will, God's way...thank You.
I am feeling very shaky this morning...scared...that is when the BFO occurred: First, my only wish is to be free of fear; second, the only way to be free of fear is through God...God's will, God's way.
If my incurable, progressive disease can be a good thing, and it is to me today, then so can dementia be.
I am reminded of Fr Damien who in faith lived amongst lepers to meet their spiritual needs...and got leprosy which he received pretty much as a gift from God for the benefit of the others. That's my imperfect memory of his story, and it may well be my example to follow. Dementia may be God's will for me for the benefit of others...and for me in its own way.
When, not if, I feel afraid, I do believe that God can and will if asked...no, not ""if asked"...when needed. I do believe that God can and will when needed, and I always need Him now.
If Thy will for me be dementia, I let it be without shame, openly, without pride, humbly. If dementia is mine, then that is known by God, ordained, blessed, sent to me with His blessing to take me through. I know not how, and I can only learn in the moments of my need...i.e., Now.
Lord, hear my prayer...thank You...Amen.
Thank you.
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