The gift is the garbage...it's the devil in the diamonds when we get what we want. -- Blinding flash of the obvious from 2019
Now...we come to here and now. These are the tortured with uncertainty times. Am I losing, or have I already lost, my mind?
I feel tortured with uncertainty, but it is not dementia that is the culprit. No, it is my own uncertainty of whether God will be there...within me, without me. That has never been a conscious fear-thought, but I am beginning to see that is the core of my fear.
When, not if, I go back inside, and God is there, I feel peaced without fanfare...when fear is so present as it is and has been, I must needs recall that I am living on the outside. That is when I feel fear God is near comes to my aid...thank You.
Clearly, with the fear of losing my mind riding herd, I'm finding it beyond difficult to let go and let God. But, in truth, hasn't that always been the case? It's just that here-and-now is here and now.
Proven truths: Stay present, feel the fear and do it anyway, trust God, do the next thing, it is better to do something about something and be wrong than to let fear determine that we do nothing.
Now to actually do.
Thank you.
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