FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY!

The following thank you prayer is from a post of mine of December 30, 2014: Thank you, God, that I want your will done in my life more than I want my own will done in my life no matter what. Open-ended. Knock yourself out, God. Do your thing. You got the power, use it....Amen

That fairly well describes me this morning...or how I'm feeling, like I've hit a brick wall and have not a clue what to do or how to do it. Not to put too fine a point on it, but I need the use of God's divine mind...now.

I am grateful that I know that is a feeling, and that whatever we are feeling, at the time is our eyebrows-up reality.

My reality this morning, then, is: Lost, alone, helpless, hopeless...wanting I know not what. Relief? Release? 

Many of my gifted truths flow to...and from...my mind. They touch me not. 

The picture blooms in my mind: Me, like a bear at hibernation time...with a want/need to find my own hidey-hole where I can curl up into a dreamless sleep and let my world pass.

To name my known cares fears: Me, with possible dementia hovering ever closer; the United States with the rigid, righteous and Right hovering ever closer; my sister at 91 with her death hovering ever closer; me left all alone...not wanting to die but afraid of living in today's world all alone.

Feel the fear and do it anyway...live! 

Thank you.

ON HEARING, OBEY...AH, A PEACED MIND

I'm feeling off this morning...off my inner sense of peace. 

I'm feeling off because my life is calling for a serious upgrade...fear of dementia is running my nervous-Nelly imagination. 

I am grateful that I know my lesson well...quite simply: Pray thank You and keep on truckin'.

This I know from my own God-led experience: Whatever comes to us, comes by way of God...as we wave ego's flag of surrender. That cannot happen without our feeling, knowing, admitting complete defeat of our own wants, hopes, ideas.

The God of my understanding whispers: Give over, give up, give in...and we are peaced. 

Ever since I heard The Word, the majority of the time...that is 51percent...I have aimed myself in that direction.

God is so good to us...God is so good.

Thank you.

LIFE IS ALWAYS FOR OUR BENEFIT...ONLY BELIEVE

God is the one through whom we are related and connected to everything. -- Brian McLaren

Here's me this morning...feeling unloved, unneeded, unwanted, unappreciated.

Lucky me...this morning I know that un feeling is just a feeling, not a fact.

I know it from feeling it long ago when I then believed it for truth. It never was, but when we're believing it, to us it is! That is the paradox of belief.

Wars are started on one's belief...which is precisely why it is imperative that we upgrade our belief. We might call it the power of positive believing.

Too often we mouth the words of belief...with our mind cowering in the corner in fear of believing.

To repeat: Lucky me for I know, from my blessedly hard-earned experience, my life is and was always for my benefit for which I thank You, Father.

Thank you.

WE MUST GO BEYOND REASON TO GOD

Per Father Richard: We have to stand in an inconspicuous, mysterious place, a place where we’re not sure that we’re sure, where we are comfortable knowing that we do not know very much at all.

I read that and an uneasy feeling crept along my spine, whispering: Isn't this where I came it? Came into my search for still more spiritual growth? When I knew naught and knowing I knew naught...almost against my own will...began to seek still more spiritual growth?

God is so good to me. I realize that had this understanding come to me earlier (which it might have), I would have missed it entirely, missed it because it does not make sense to my reasoning mind.

There's the blessing! 

That is what led me to realize the truth...we must go beyond reason to love...to God.

Feeling a tish unsettled, my heart sings: I'm on the right path, heading in the right direction. Thank You, Father.

Thank you.

LIVING BY GRACE AND BY GOD

Occasionally the opposite meaning of two well-known sayings floats through my mind...for instance, recently we must try with a will or fall by the wayside and let go and let God have been present.

In my early spiritual education, I married myself to "try with a will," but over the years and the opening of my mind, I've come to prefer "let go and let God." I suspect I prefer that one because it requires my honest effort...it's not a say it and sound good, it's a just do it.

"My honest effort" is primarily all about freeing my mind...erasing the natter-chatter. That, I'm here to shout, takes a whole lot of effort.

The effort being in not trying.

Apparently, our spiritual growth is getting free of the reasoning mind's hold on us. We don't want to lose our reasoning mind's guidance, but we can no longer rely on it. Face it, that's pretty much all we had for years...or all we knew we had.

More and more I'm feeling the assurance of guidance living within me. When that uneasy "what to do?" enters my mind, almost automatically calm enters...not the "right" answer...I don't even know the question! I am calmed by...oh, by grace and by God, of course.

There...living doubt-free is a given when we live by grace and by God.

Thank you.

THE TRANSCENDENTAL PRESENCE WITHIN, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of March 19, 2020.]

Whether we realize it (believe it, accept it, want it) or not, God is right now operating in our life...has already solved what we perceive as a problem. All our machinations to solve that problem...mentally or physically or even spiritually...are what keeps God seemingly slow on the uptake. God is never late, nor is he too slow. 

It is our wanting God to be true that is our jailhouse. Our very want is denial.

Our overriding defect of character is self which is the single thing that needs changing in this moment.  Therein lies our problem...we cannot change our own self...yet also our solution, a mystical, transcendental Presence within us that has already provided our infinite supply unto eternity.... (Joel Goldsmith, "A Parenthesis in Eternity," p 269)

Our Father made us perfect before conception. And to that we return. We have made the U-bie, we are on the journey Home, being resurrected even as we trudge the road of happy destiny.  

Let us each be the chicken soup for the soul for each other today...just for today. 

Thank you.

AWE...THE EGOIC SELF'S BYPASS

Knowledge is fostered by curiosity; wisdom is fostered by awe. Awe precedes faith; it is the root of faith. We must be guided by awe to be worthy of faith.  -- Rabbi Abraham Joshua Heschel, "Richard Rohr's Daily Meditations," December 19, 2025

I nearly let this quote pass on by...but I got hooked by the last sentence, We must be guided by awe to be worthy of faith. 

I'm discovering this morning that I have viewed "awe" as fitting only Disney-like stories...fun, fantabulous but fantasy pure and simple.

Interestingly, I found myself accepting Rabbi Heschel's statement without really understanding its message...until the last few words. Now I look forward to pondering the entire message. It is growing wings within me.

More, I'm getting a glimmer that this is the real nature of still more spiritual growth. If it makes no reasoning mind sense yet speaks from our soul to us...ah, there it is, the egoic self's bypass.

Thank you.