LOOSING YOUR GOOD...LETTING IT FLOW

[The following is an updated reprint of my blog of May 27, 2012.]

Staying in my resistance to Donald Trump, et al., attaches Trump, et al., to me exactly as I am interpreting them to be  and keeps me just that far from advancing in my own spiritual growth. All the current politicos who I "despitefully use" become my God at that moment.

I thank you for all that is appearing to my reasoning mind's eyes...I loose them and let them go, knowing full well this is a discipline I get to do daily. It is as necessary to me as my daily meditation on God Itself.

Per Joel Goldsmith, "The very Soul of God is your individual Soul, and it is out of that Soul (the kingdom of God within you) that your good flows." I will never realize that until I surrender fully to its truth about Trump, et al, too...and before me.

It is available to me only to the degree that I consciously realize it and walk it daily.

Thank you.

LOGIC DESPAIRS, SPIRIT EXULTS

I fully accept Fr. Richard Rohr's contention, "If there is nothing in your life to cry about, if there is nothing in your life to yell about, you must be out of touch." That, to me, is being fully alive in the material world.

Those of us whose first goal is the seeking of still more spiritual growth must recognize, realize and accept that the material world is ever with us. It is the spiritual world that we can only visit...and then only with a whale of self discipline and desire. [Note my Jonah reference...sometimes I just get too cute to contain myself.] 

Our initial break with logic is the necessary move upward to a deeper place in consciousness. Logic tells us if we're crying or yelling about something, then we're building a resentment, and we've got to stop that. Too often, our idea of stopping that is to stuff it, deny it and yell at the dog...and then suffer the remorses of the damned.

Our growth spurt comes when, without conscious thought or effort, we welcome that which we're crying/yelling about...we kiss it on the lips and know it for our angel in disguise.

This is the very essence of surrender, of crashing and burning and rising again all in one...and we will know the feeling of God in our life. This will happen again and again and again, and it will feel like the first time every time.

Logic will despair, Spirit will exult.

Thank you.

BECOMING ACCOUNTABLE...AND LIKING IT

There was a time when I believed that perfect peace was having somebody to blame. Imagine my surprise when I found that to be true...except the one to blame was me!

The paradox is that that admission was the first crack in my secret core of self-condemnation. My ego Lucy was working overtime to keep that core belief in its special hidey-hole while always searching out there for somebody to blame.

That first crack brought the wondrous blinding flash of the obvious: If we're living in blame and shame, we're traveling down that wrong road again. The spiritual world is no-fault insurance...whether we're accepting fault or placing fault, we're playing God. Stop it. But how?

We stop it by realizing the freedom of taking responsibility for our own behavior. We learn how to be accountable to God, to our self, and to others not only for our words and actions but for our thoughts...especially for our thoughts.

Another paradox: After the first couple times, admitting our errors comes fairly easily; the real toughie...learning how to be accountable for our own goodness. We all know bragging is not the way which we learn by first doing our humble bragging, and that works for awhile. It is our first step out into this no-fault realm so we accept that. But we know. There is more, deeper that we need to go higher to get to.

It takes time to come to an understanding that being accountable for our own goodness shows itself...no words are needed, indeed they often cancel the process.

We know we are heading in the right direction when others tell us the good news we show forth, and we know that our self is not, was not, never will be involved in that...that it is our Self showing forth.

Gratitude enwraps us, and even Lucy is quieted.

Thank you.

FREED FROM RESENTMENT

We must be willing to hurt our own feelings for the benefit of another. This is a major, but just another, lesson in learning to detach from our dependence on our own reasoning mind.

Since it is our own thoughts that engineer our hurt, we must feel that hurt and know it for the nothingness that it is. Otherwise we will put someone else's name on it and feel a compulsive want (that we mistake for need) to "set him straight" or hurt her in kind, i.e., the way we perceive they have hurt us.

In fact, our hurt feelings begin with our own thinking, grow horns and gore us. I suspect that is the journey of psychic hurt...it begins with our resistance to it, really.

This explains the how and why of the Sermon's "turn the other cheek." It frees us from our guilty desire to feel resentful.

Peace, be still.

Thank you.

LOSE ALL BOUNDARIES...FREE SELF

Blinding flash of the obvious: Living in the reasoning mind world is to set and keep boundaries; living in the spiritual world is to loose all boundaries and let them go.

In the material world we learn that ultimately we are responsible for the care and feeding of our self. It takes time, but in finally accepting that, we realize that we must set and keep boundaries, that in the end that is the path to self-respect. "If you don't respect yourself, no one else will respect you," we are taught...which, no doubt, is true.

But there will come a day, if we're doing it right, when for whatever reason, in whatever manner or means, we are blessed with the need and the desire for a power greater than our self, i.e., God, to do our thinking for us.

We begin to learn that with God there are no  boundaries. We must lose the reasoning mind's belief that we must get...anything. That we must hold on to...anything.

Spiritual growth is all about becoming transparent...as in, resist not. Whatever comes, looking like death or destruction or merely a snark (which will occupy way more of our mind's time than death, etc.), we learn to detach from our own opinion of it. Detach is our new word-world.

There are no boundaries with transparency...no fear, hate or malice held. Each and all pass on through and dissipate for there are no boundaries to hold them.

It all began for me when I made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God...and meant it. (Meaning it took me awhile.) (Is taking me awhile...I just remembered That Hospital.)

Thank you.

ON FORGIVENESS

Following is a prayer a friend sent me. She tells me that it's by an unknown poet who left it beside the body of a dead child at Ravensbruck death camp during its period of "unspeakable human darkness." 

O Lord, remember not only the men and women
Of good will, but also those of ill will.
But do not remember all the suffering they inflicted on us;
Remember the fruits we have bought, thanks to
This suffering--our comradeship,
Our loyalty, our humility, our courage,
Our generosity, the greatness of heart
Which has grown out of all this, and when
They come to judgment let all the fruits
Which we have borne be their forgiveness.

Oh, to live in that state of consciousness. I must remember that it is enough to God that I want to.

Thank you.

GOD, NONRESISTANCE; EGO, RESISTANCE

I continue to ponder my realization that both our ego and our God live within us, are invisible to us, yet one or the other controls our every thought, word and deed.

I am having a wonderful time perceiving my ego as Lucy, the name that God gave to me for her...at which time he also let me know that she is his friend with whom he is well pleased. (I suspect he is well pleased with her because she cracks him up.) Every fact and act of Lucy's invisible existence is for her pleasure, pride and privilege. Since each goes contrary to God's will, she must lose, and only God can come to her aid...and only through me.

God loves Lucy in spite of herself...probably because of herself. But also because God cannot not love.

The reasoning mind cannot get us into God's will or out of Lucy's way, but it is the tool we've been given to use to aid in our continuing education about that fact. Without our reasoning mind seeing and saying that we're going down that wrong road again, we'd never know the relief, when wrong, of promptly admitting it.

Just as important, it's our reasoning mind that assures us we are growing spiritually when we've given over to another...there's no better feeling than that inner "You done good, girl!"

Quite simply, I believe God's will for me is whatever benefits others...with God, whatever I do I do for others. Lucy's will for me is for the benefit of me...with ego, whatever I do I do for me.

God is nonresistance...open, free-flowing; ego is resistance...rigid, righteous and right. Resist not....

Thank you.