There was a time when I believed that perfect peace was having somebody to blame. Imagine my surprise when I found that to be true...except the one to blame was me!
The paradox is that that admission was the first crack in my secret core of self-condemnation. My ego Lucy was working overtime to keep that core belief in its special hidey-hole while always searching out there for somebody to blame.
That first crack brought the wondrous blinding flash of the obvious: If we're living in blame and shame, we're traveling down that wrong road again. The spiritual world is no-fault insurance...whether we're accepting fault or placing fault, we're playing God. Stop it. But how?
We stop it by realizing the freedom of taking responsibility for our own behavior. We learn how to be accountable to God, to our self, and to others not only for our words and actions but for our thoughts...especially for our thoughts.
Another paradox: After the first couple times, admitting our errors comes fairly easily; the real toughie...learning how to be accountable for our own goodness. We all know bragging is not the way which we learn by first doing our humble bragging, and that works for awhile. It is our first step out into this no-fault realm so we accept that. But we know. There is more, deeper that we need to go higher to get to.
It takes time to come to an understanding that being accountable for our own goodness shows itself...no words are needed, indeed they often cancel the process.
We know we are heading in the right direction when others tell us the good news we show forth, and we know that our self is not, was not, never will be involved in that...that it is our Self showing forth.
Gratitude enwraps us, and even Lucy is quieted.
Thank you.
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