TO WALK THROUGH, RESIST NOT

Blinding flash of the obvious:  He prepares a place before me in the presence of my enemies...He prepares the place, it is he who is fully responsible. Mine is to let him walk me through whatever comes...and in the presence of my enemies. To walk through is to resist not. 

My Vow of Poverty -  to give up my egoic want to be the 'breach mender' for that is the want for glory in disguise.

I'll say this, God does not mess around. I got a whole new take on my vow this weekend. First, God probably does not give us a to-do list and watch us flounder and flail in our attempts to do it. Which has been my experience since the vow came to me...trying with a will to make it work.

We know from our own experience based on the words of spiritual teachers, mystics and saints, that God completes that which is given us to do...that He goes before us to make the crooked places straight. Since our egoic mind is ever with us, knowing that and doing that are two entirely different things. Which, face it, is the nature of still more spiritual growth.

I am grateful that I have learned the gift in when (not if) wrong, promptly admit it. Without that as my go-to, no doubt I would be continuing to natter about everybody but me being wrong. 

I See Me and realize that the whole lot of us are heading down that wrong road again; that, personally, I needed to make a U-bie p.d.q. I also needed to find the sliver of gold here...and there is was: My vow showed itself as a self-determined objective. 

Yet without that vow I doubt I would have so immediately recognized the eye-opener of my reaction as the most important part to me. The others I now know to be angels in my life for they surely helped dispel my vow as useful to me.  

So to button it down: My vow of poverty...ego on the hoof. Conceived, born and bred by my self-determined objective which sounded too pretty to just let go of. But aren't they all? 

God loves me so much...you, too, and all my Gertrudes!

Thank you.