GRANT WHAT THOU WILL

We must move to the laboratory where all such radical change can occur—inside of our very mind, heart, and the cells of our body....It gives us an inner sense of divine union so we can do the needed works of justice with peace, enduring passion, and insofar as possible, personal invisibility.  -- Fr Richard Rohr, "Daily Meditation"

I am fascinated with the ancient people, the desert ascetics, the saints who knew...and lived...detachment as the way to the Divine Spark, the Father within. In my early years, and utterly un-God-consciously, detachment was my personal path...which I returned to almost without realizing it. 

In studying the life of Saint Francis, I learned how he lived a vow of poverty. Who's kidding whom,  living without a penny to bless myself with held less than no appeal to me...so I made myself available to any idea my Father or any of my angels might choose to impart for me to have such a vow that I could live by.

It has taken as long as it has taken, but whoa! Here came an incident that opened the door: Recently, I shared with my group about a personal experience but I did not share some face-saving parts of the story...so I gave the impression that I'd just weaseled a lot. Later, I found myself regretting that omission...as in, nattering to myself about how dumb I was. Came the 3:00 AM blinding flash, and I said right out loud, but I can take that as my 'vow of poverty.' 

There...the fruits of going to "the laboratory within our very mind, heart, and cells of our body...so we can do the needed work ...to gain insofar as possible, personal invisibility."

I know my vow of poverty now...personal invisibility. Now, the works of the Father can flow through without a hint of my fingerprints, echo of my voice, or desire for an "atta girl."

Lord, You have Your work cut out for me...thank You. 

Grant what thou commandest and then command what thou wilt.  -- Saint Augustine

Thank you.