I have been blessed with the ability to draw friends to me...the flip side, I have been cursed with the defect of making myself a target for non-friends.
In my seeking self-acceptance, I came to that coin-like facet of me...two sides of the same coin...and I was gifted with peace about it. That is me. When people come to me, I joy, and when I'm the unloved, unwanted, unneeded, unappreciated target, I grumble...and then remember who I am and grin. Usually doesn't happen in a heartbeat, but it happens because that's self-acceptance. And self-acceptance can feel yo-yo-ish...here/not here/here/etc.
In my seeking self-acceptance, I came to that coin-like facet of me...two sides of the same coin...and I was gifted with peace about it. That is me. When people come to me, I joy, and when I'm the unloved, unwanted, unneeded, unappreciated target, I grumble...and then remember who I am and grin. Usually doesn't happen in a heartbeat, but it happens because that's self-acceptance. And self-acceptance can feel yo-yo-ish...here/not here/here/etc.
Just this morning another huge hunk of self-acceptance came to me. I realized that my nemesis, that part of me that I resist by resignation and call it acceptance, lives in my well of humility. It is that which God protects by letting it be. It serves to lead me free of me...to remove it, as I have oh so often wished, would leave my ego in control.
By its very being, my nemesis serves as a humble beacon lighting my path forward, upward to the depths of my Soul. Like all good things, like all less-than-wonderful things, I welcome it. I call its name Blessed for that way leads to peace.
Thank you.
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