It is not having everything in life go smoothly that shows forth good spiritual condition, it is when things go awry and I go smoothly that shows forth good spiritual condition.
The above is a note I wrote in my "God Calling" on this day in 1988. I note it today because...well, apparently I need to note it today. I've had the "in generals" for a while now...low-grade gray. Like there's a high-grade gray? There. Perfect example. No matter what I say to me, my ego Lucy answers with a snark.
It's times like this that it is not enough for my reasoning mind that I know that God has my back, goes before me to make the crooked places straight, can and will if asked, blah, blah and blah.
And with that admission, I realize that I have extra help available...a friend gave me a beautiful rosary recently. I know less than nothing about the actual use of rosaries which is the good news. To me, that means it's the rosary of my own understanding; I'm free to believe that it brings me whatever I need (not an ego-determined want, mind, but a need, our needs being entirely up to God).
I have found my favorite Our Lady of Fatima there amongst the beads, and that brings me peace, my needed peace. Since the movie (in the '50s?) I've loved Our Lady of Fatima, and here she is today, this minute. God loves me so much.
Thank you.
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