I tend to believe that regrets are just resentments in fancy dress. The first sentence in today's "God Calling" is just two words: Regret nothing. The second sentence: Not even the sins and failures.
That's sure not putting too fine a point on it, is it?
That's not Fatherly advice, that's a command.
Why, then, do we find it so difficult to follow that command? Who's kidding whom? There is no room for debate there. No way is Yes, but acceptable...or even allowed!
I never wanted to deny it. I just wanted to learn how to let it be true, to be my truth.
I bring good news. We let it be true by our daily commitment to seek still more spiritual growth. Now. Here. Right where we are.
We seek still more spiritual growth daily not (just) for the Big Bang, God Is moment. But for the little constants...the misspeaks, the inadvertents, the oops of life. Those are the regrets my ego Lucy could polish until they were clear enough to read another's name on...and a resentment was birthed. The resentment needed not be at the other, it often was at me, specifically my own stupidity, ignorance, no-good-dirty- whoa, Nellie, I'm gone again.
Ah, and there's the pearl. Through daily practice, we find a whole new wakin' up morning. We can feel that niggling regret, and we can know peace. We are now aware that it's just looking to blame and shame, but there's no willing body at home to accept it.
It is in the search, the discipline to seek still more spiritual growth daily, that we find the peace that passes understanding. Without that daily discipline, it fades, and it fades a lot faster than ever it comes.
Maybe that's why we're told to pray without ceasing...and maybe that's why, per Meister Eckhart, If the only prayer you say in your life is thank you, that would suffice.
Thank you.
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