LORD, HEAR MY PRAYER

I am feeling...nada. Nothingness. An off-and-on headache. A free-floating fear underlying me. Sleepy...uh-oh.

Comes now my secret mantra...we must try with a will or fall by the wayside. 

I feel like I'm running on empty...a feeling is not a fact, thank you very much. 

Geez, I am deep in this blah, so much so that I'm starting to consider getting a cat...two cats. Seriously. Even mentioned it to another person recently but only conversationally, I thought. Which...if God loves me...will be as far as I get with that. 

Face it...this is fear of dementia...might as well spit it out, let it strut its stuff. If this is dementia, it'll strut its stuff without a by-your-leave from me. I note I'm still "if'ing" it. And I will until I get to where I need be...God's will, God's way.

Whether I feel it or not, whether I know it or not, I am held up by His everlasting love...we all are. If Since that be true, use it, rely on it, Let It Be. 

Try with a will or ball by the wayside.

Thank you.

ACCEPT THE DIRT, LOVE THE GOLD, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of July 12, 2017.]

We must seek to know our own self until we accept that the dirt we find is our gold. By accept, I mean love. Love the dirt, love the gold for they are one...not two sides of the same coin, but one through and through.

With that love, we are turned away from our constant naval gazing, our ego search to find (and correct) our self, and we know. That is God's gift...we know that in our whole and complete trust in the God of our own understanding, our search is over.

We seek no more in our bellybutton or in our brain. We are now living wholly by spiritual standards. We will know spiritual standards for they seek us out.

Thank you.

RESIST NOT DARKNESS AND CONFUSION

...periods of darkness, confusion, and struggle are necessary for our transformation and growth. -- Richrd Rohr Daily Meditation, July 14, 2025

Long ago I was gifted with the realization that my Way needed to be the reverse of the universally accepted idea of Good, of Religious, of Holy, of Right. All of which spoke of sweet, kind, considerate. and overly generous...happily, over my head like a hairnet.

For some time, I'd been comforted with the realization that going backward for me was going forward to the God of my understanding. I told no one...face it, that makes no reasoning mind sense at all. It is, however, quite literally my God-given truth. 

From the moment of realization, I accepted it unto inviting that truth to speak to me...louder, daily, always and all ways. That has been the case only on God's timetable...meaning, slowly, slowly, slowly. But always right on time for my spiritual understanding.

Reading now of periods of darkness, confusion, and struggle being a spiritual-growth necessity, I am comforted and reconfirmed in the reality that spiritually I've been brought home.

Thank you.

OUR NEMESIS IS OUR ANGEL, 1

[The following is a reprint of my post of December 28, 2018.]

The forever lesson to learn: To our reasoning mind, the one arousing our negative side is our nemesis...ah, but spiritually, that one is our angel.

There it is...the key to changing our mind. Then we must needs stay our focus on the power within which is ever on hand to further the opening, as needed.

This is an ongoing spiritual process...an opened mind releases the power for good within. Our detachment frees our thoughts from building self-determined results. That which we are resisting is freely transmuted in our mind...and we are graced with another angel in our midst.

Thank you.

THE HAPPY DANCE AND GOD'S LOVE, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of October 18, 2023.]

The holy gift of thank you is with me this morning.

I'm convinced that thank you opens our mind and our heart simultaneously allowing us to see from the other person's perspective...or to seek to understand their view and stop doubling down on our own hurt and anger, our self-absorbed negativity.

The holy gift of thank you is nonresistance, transmuting the perceived difficulty into our angel. There...the sliver of gold that turns us within to God where there is peace of mind.

Peace of mind, no matter our perception of life's difficulties and troubles, is to love and laugh. Maybe do a little happy dance. Ah, the happy dance...warm and wonderful evidence that God is just crazy about us.

Thank you.

COSMIC...KARMIC...WHATEVER, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of July 26, 2013.]

According to me, there is no surer way to reach understanding of another than to sit in judgment of that other. Seems like within a blink we'll find ourselves doing the exact thing we were sitting in judgment of in the other.

It is cosmic.

Thank you.

GET OVER YOURSELF...BE, I

[The following is a very slightly reworked reprint of my post of July 20, 2020.]

I just reread a sentence of mine from a recent post: Our problem is us...whether we are living from self-will, trying to give love to get love...or from spiritual will, to give love. I need to change that a tish...living from spiritual will is to be love, not to give love.

To presume to give love is...presumptuous. 

Love is not ours to give...love is God and all that God touches...All. Choosing to give love invites self to get involved. No. Love is God in action with, within, with out...in which we seek to be a conscious participant.

The hard work is in being...because it requires we not work, we be. That we not think on it, ponder it, understand it even. We Be. We be the love we already are...love that we were born into. By loving our Father within, we cannot not be the love we seek and already are.

 Actually, get over yourself says it all, doesn't it?

Thank you.