ON FINDING COMFORT IN OUR REGRETS

My understanding of the second half of life is mostly homesickness for the True Self. I want to learn to be who God really created me to be. And I think all God wants me to be is who I really am. -- Fr Richard, Daily Meditation, May 6, 2024 [That was a direct thought of mine on awakening this morning. Again, my regrets are the gifts of gold that help tell who I really am.]

Giftees to me personally from the 23rd Psalm:

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. There it is, the promise that delivers peace of mind: I shall not want...I have enough. I shall never not have enough for the Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me. When, not if, I walk through the valley of the shadow of fear...fear of dementia, of being left all alone, of being unloved, unwanted, unneeded, unappreciated, I heed them not for thou are with me, within me.

Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thy rod and thy staff are love and laughter.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies...It is God Itself that prepares the table before me in the presence of my fears, and nothing turns me to God faster than fear. I can unheed my fear for thou are with me within me.

Immediately upon reading Fr Richard's I want to learn to be who God really created me to be, my meditation on the 23rd Psalm flowed through me. Each of the little blinding flashes of the obvious that I have set out above has come to me over the years. Each still gives me the peace and joy I got when first I received them. As I settle into my second half of life, nothing could comfort me more.

Thank you. 

LETTING GO INTO GOD IS COMING HOME

There is an inherent and desirous dissatisfaction that both sends and draws us forward, and it comes from our original and radical union with God. -- Fr Richard, Daily Meditation, May 5, 2024

It has happened again! That which came to me in meditation, I then read about in Fr Richard's Daily Meditation. 

His quote above foretells today's journal entry in which I wrote of my feeling left out, but of my not bending to my reasoning mind: 

"Mine is to continue to build on my yesteryear's decision to accept...NOT RESIST...any and all slings and arrows of outrageous fate's self-talk. I trust the God of my own understanding which is for my benefit always and all ways. Thank you." 

Letting go into God is coming home to our true selves. —Ilia Delio, Oneing, Fall 2023

God loves me...us...so much.

Thank you.

ON HEADING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, I

[The following is a reprint of my post of November 14, 2021]

I recall lecturing others: 'Just so you'll not be blind-sided again, it is always you...it is never them.' That is a sentence from my post, entitled The Inner Road To Freedom, of December 14, 2013. I note that because I am still trying to remember to do it.

Ah, but what we know and what we do are two entirely different things. There. That's the inner road to freedom...honestly seeking to marry those two up.

I have read and I do not doubt that the minute we feel the inner need for still more spiritual growth, we spiritually know all we need to know. Comes now the crux of all spiritual growth...coming to trust that inner need was met in the instant of realization...to trust there is a Divine Source within us.

It is that spiritual knowing, reasoning mind unknowing, that is our spiritual seed and our material mind's Cross to bear.

We have spent long hours trying to believe unto trusting that the Higher Power is within us, is on our side, does have our back, is available to us always and all ways.

We do not regret those hours spent coming to believe for they were well spent learning life's lessons...like, I am the source of all my woes; when (not if) wrong, promptly admit it; or, the hardest thing life is ever going to ask of us is to change our mind. The solution clarified: Go to God for to change our mind.

All roads lead to God. There is no wrong road, just a good many detours.

Thank you.

ON LIVING THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF THE CHRIST

I have ever sought to realize the consciousness of the Christ within me. I just flashed that I am in the consciousness of the Christ just as I am. I need seek no more but now live it.

I love my blinding flashes...it turns out, however, I can love them to pieces, but living them is a whole 'nother me.

Looking back, I understand that I have ever been in the consciousness of the Christ...we all are (says I from my eyebrows up). I can be grateful for that truth and that I have little to no expectations of living it to my own satisfaction. 

There's the pearl beyond price...the realization that our own satisfaction is the cesspool of self-centered wants with let the devil take the hindmost our hidey-hole. 

Consciously knowing unto unconsciously breathing God's will, God's way is the unattainable gift...maybe because unconsciously breathing that gift is God realized. Attainable three days after we're dead. And maybe not, but we do know better than to set that as our goal...a new self-determined objective.

Let go and let God has just grown another dimension. 

God loves us so much.

Thank you. 

GROWING BEYOND WISHES AND WANTS...HAPPILY

Today, apparently, is my day for re-learning. My blinding flash this morning, May 2, 2024, was: That which we think is wrong with us we finally realize is and has ever been God's will for us. I then wrote about understanding I not only chose at birth my life's path, but it has ever been my choice.

An hour or two later, I was led to my July 15, 2021, journal entry where I had written: That which we think is wrong with us we finally realize is and has ever been God's will for us. I had then written about understanding I not only chose at birth my life's path, but it has ever been my choice.

There...proof of God fulfilling my unrealized needs: Not only that I wrote the exact same thing three years apart, but that I had the realization this morning and very shortly thereafter was led to the entry from three years ago. I was not looking for anything in particular, my journal just fell open to that entry after I had my flash.

The holy confirmation I feel...the inner knowing...is from the rest of my earlier entry, i.e., we quit quoting neighbors, mentors, friends and teachers...we become less visible, often misquoted, misunderstood, ignored. 

That foretells what I am walking through now for, in general, I have quit quoting others, I have become less visible, often misquoted, misunderstood, ignored. The news is I am living that without conscious effort, complaint or desire to improve...this is me today. 

To wrap up, time takes time, and God's time is all there is. All else is wishes and wants wrapped up in fantasy.

Thank you.

EXPECT A MOVEMENT OF SPIRIT WITHIN

 Practice active listening. Expect to be shown new ideas, thoughts, or realizations...a movement of Spirit that speaks in that still, small voice inside you. - Fr Richard's Daily Meditation, April 27, 2024

Active listening...there is the elusive sliver of gold. To me, the definition of active listening is a quieted mind...an inviting silence. Also, the definition and my doing are two different things...ah, but both head me in the right direction...out of self into Self.

My way there seems to be when I'm feeling most lost with no clear idea what my next action...or thought...needs to be. That is precisely how and why thank you is the only needed prayer...what to do? is answered not by thought but by welcoming silence. 

Expect to be shown new ideas, thoughts, or realizations. There! Expect...the inner action of Trust. We cannot self-will learning to trust but, again,  we must try with a will or fall by the wayside. 

Proof of Fr Richard's we don't get to God by doing it right, we get to God by doing it wrong comes after we have made a decision to seek still more spiritual growth, and, seemingly consistently, we show our bum in public, fall on our face, look the fool. Trust comes by showing our bum in public, falling on our face, looking the fool...regretting each and every time...yet continuing to believe each time that was for my benefit...knowing this, too, is spiritual growth. 

In looking back, we have our proof...our life. Within, we are walking around examples of God's grace...out there we are anyone's next-door neighbor and that is all.

Thank you.

P.S. Rejoice! A White Buffalo was born April 25, 2024, in Kansas. Expect to be shown new ideas, thoughts, or realizations.

OUR FATHER, OUR FRIEND, WHO LIVES WITHIN

Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth. --  Matthew 5:5

Blinding flash of the obvious: Unrealized, that is the permission I have ever sought...to be the meek, the inheritor who can pass it on.

Blessed are the meek has been circling in my head for some time now...in realizing that, I know it is in me as me...my responsibility is to live it. 

I don't suppose that we can live as anything we do not fully comprehend. To many, meek means weak, and thanks, but no. We must slowly open to the spiritual nature. 

We waste years ignoring the deeper meaning of life itself, and meek may lead the way. Meek is to be moved within...down to a higher consciousness.  Ah, taking care of No. 1 is now being taken care of by No. 1. 

New light breaking: No. 1 is not us...and whatever flows after that flash is from No. 1, our Father, our Friend, who lives within. 

Oh, of course...the Father and I are One answers exactly how the meek shall inherit the earth.  

Thank you.