Gena Rowlands in “A Woman Under the Influence” (1974): Shortly after filming, Ms. Rowlands told the publication New Times that the film was an attempt to explore 'the natural drama of a woman’s life,' including what she said were feelings of worthlessness and fears of abandonment.
In that Washington Post article/obit of Gena Rowlands this morning, I read a line that either blew my mind or has such possibility...it's too soon to tell in toto.
My blinding flash of the obvious: .... "'the natural drama of a woman's life' including feelings of worthlessness and fears of abandonment"....
Whoa!...the natural drama of a woman's life? including feelings of worthlessness and fears of abandonment?
That is the natural drama of my life? That's not just the warped insecure feelings of the younger poor, pitiful, put-upon me? Who fought so hard, and nearly fruitlessly, to overcome those feelings?
I mentally fall to my knees and thank God I live a turned-over life today. After the initial "OMG, I See Me" flash, I settle into seeing me and the possibilities.
Just like my realization that fear is God's helpmate within us, i.e., nothing turns us to God faster than fear, I am opened to the feelings of worthlessness and fears of abandonment as God's helpmate for women.
Trying to overcome them...to be more like men?...is a self-determined objective, not of God. I suspect that might be akin to cats trying to be more like dogs, or cows like goats.
If that be so, the change women need is trying to be more like God rather than like men. Trying to be more like God is to love, and that is all. There it is, the sliver of gold.
Men could likewise benefit, but this is a woman's story...or women + God story.
Thank you.
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