ON THE PLANTING OF LOVE WITH LAUGHTER

I stumbled on a writing of mine from 2017...what I wrote is akin to what I am experiencing today. The difference is when I wrote it, I was in the process of coming to believe it...kinda like, I hope I'm not lying here. 

Great and glorious news...I wasn't lying! 

I am living today what I was hoping in 2017; i.e.,  Everything that is happening to me, that is happening in my life right this very instant is answered prayer...is the answer to my very own prayer as generated by my thoughts, my judgments, my fears, my praise, my pleasures.

Clearly, what I was living then did not qualify for a material world label of "pretty" or even good news.

This invites the comparison to what I am living today...life appearing as less-than-wonderful but being lived in the way I was hoping for when first I wrote about it. If not full-out laughter, then smiles...non-resistant...accepting in a word.

I am experiencing splinters and snags and bumps and bruises...and a mind free from "#%$& +^" with a heart full of peace. Mayhap surprised peace, nonetheless peace.  

I wrote in 2017, The more accepting I am (transparent), the more content or giving I will feel. The less accepting I am (opaque), the needier I will feel.

I wrote that on faith...on what I'd read and heard from friends who have gone before me, from Fr Richard, Goldsmith, Easwaran, et al. The good news is none of them lied. I have not cursed and cried, beat my breast and wailed...no, not even once! I've pretty much just grinned at myself in my today's walking-around reality.

It may well be that the better news is...I know #%$& +^ will come again. I will arm wrestle with God again...I will take myself too seriously again. 

Best news: When, not if, that happens, through the God of my own understanding, I am freed to love and laugh and share my truth of the matter. That's how love with laughter grows.

Thank you.