For a while now, I have been writing about the gift of smaller, littler, less-than, and how that is my new spiritual aim. One day to become childlike flashed, and a day or two later Fr Richard's dailies started running meditations on having a child's mind. I take note when that happens.
In a flash, "a clock wound backward" spoke of becoming as a little child. It also describes my inner self today. The littler, smaller I have been seeing as good is happening...showing outwardly as immaturity at best. In short, my egoic mind is not on board with less-than.
Being kept virtually in isolation due to the pandemic, I have been saying that I need to be resocialized. These inner changes are clarifying my thoughts...I expect I'd feel just as unsocialized if there'd been no pandemic to keep me in isolation.
An example is my recent breakfast with a friend when I ran my mouth about nothing and less than nothing...my friend just looked stumped. I'm fairly sure we both had in mind an interesting conversation about the new book we're each enjoying. She even brought it up, and I ran all over it with childish chatter. (I use that term, childish chatter, deliberately...hopefully.)
I am comfortable with and within my reasoning mind...I know God has a place there, too. But being gifted with a deeper way to see that is beyond reason...the pearl beyond price.
God's got my hand, and we're going for it.
Thank you.
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