My hardest lesson to learn has been my own realization of my true identity as a child of God. I have come to accept realization as being born in the Soul, entering the heart and traveling to the head for implementation...to see, hear, speak and pass on.
Accepting that that realization is not a "gettable," is not to strive for, to study for, to barter or bargain for is the second lesson. The first lesson is we must do each and all of those...that is called "learning." Finding that well, that didn't work is learning.
The reasoning mind, ever on autopilot, will keep doing its thing over and over again...but calling it insanity is a copout. To me, it is fear...fear of trusting that Unknown that we are trying so hard to get...striving, studying, barter and bargaining for to get. There..."we have to do it wrong to get it right."
We are drawn to look deeper, that is nonresistance...we resist not our reasoning mind's "wrong again" message and shuck our shields. We become anonymous to self-interest, self-protection, self...ah, and we find love. We find love basically through laughter at our own sense of seriousness about our part in the whole thing. Our part in the whole thing is hug it, kiss it on the lips, let it go. Or, resist not.
All this can be boiled down to hold your nose and take a leap of faith. But we must needs do it all...every "jot and tittle"...to be able to look back and understand we could have held our nose and taken a leap of faith.
According to Rohr (and one of my favorite Rohr quotes), We don't get to God by doing it right, we get to God by doing it wrong. And isn't that a comfort!
Thank you.
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