Blinding flash of the obvious, redux: We must become willing to have God's will done just as God has already willed it to be. Our self-determined objective may well be the right objective, but we must walk God's way to get there.
A treasured memory: Me, praying for God to stop an unhealthy habit of mine, even as I indulged in that unhealthy habit. I knew from trying...repeatedly...that I could not not so indulge; I was to learn that just not indulging was never God's perfect objective for me. God's will for me was to go with a program spiritual in nature that would change my entire life, within which (as a side bennie!) I would stop my unhealthy habits.
That is as important to me today as then. I am in a stuck place right now, and I am trying to think my way out of it, going for the self-determined objective. Self-determining back in the day was to believe I'd changed, or "got it right."
Muscle memory and God work together it seems. Yesterday, without prior planning, I asked a mentee for help with a project I've been wanting to do. Later, I was on the verge of castigating myself for parading my ignorance before a mentee even though I knew I'd learned years ago when stuck what to do and how to do it.
Bordering on regrets, I got a flash: My way originally was self-determined and worked fine for its time...but now it is deeper lesson time.
Our lessons to learn use whatever we bring to the table. Today I know I need to go forward with my project. That's how I'll learn whether it's good as is or it needs to be enhanced or reformed or just rejected...howsomever, our life lessons have naught to do with projects.
My life lesson today is all about deepening my trust in the God of my own understanding without an end result before me. The quiet word is ever, not mine, thine.
Another side bennie...doing God's will means we'll never feel bored. We don't know the end result before hand, but we know we'll feel blessed purely by our trust in it.
Thank you.
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