FOR THIS I ROSE AGAIN...TO FIND MY GOD

I heard Gov Andrew Cuomo of New York speak yesterday about the danger we are all in of cabin fever. Then he described cabin fever...mounting irritation with life itself, lashing out at loved ones, being snarky to spouse, partners, kids...even beloved pets. Ah, then doubling down on self.

There is no way to describe the blessed feeling of relief I felt with every word he spoke. 

I have no spouse, partner, kids or pet, but I do have loved ones...I just don't want that to become past tense, as in I did have loved ones. Oh, and I do have self...self with whom I sometimes feel as if I am in an ugly-name-calling contest, both of us looking to lose.

I remind myself: It is for this I crashed and burned and rose again...to follow directions this time 'round. To find the God of my understanding...find him living right there inside me. To find that I am never alone even when I'm resting in my needed peace alone. To discover already there within me the joy of being present for the benefit of others...and equally joyful for the presence of others there for the benefit of me.

After I head Gov. Cuomo, I heard a news report...scientists are discovering the earth's surface is changing. It is settling down, giving off less noxious gases, etc., due to the shutdown of business...less traffic, less commerce. The earth is getting its much needed chance to renew itself. 

There is no way to describe the blessed feeling of relief I felt even as I heard that. 

There is a sliver of gold in everything. Find that sliver of gold. Focus on the gold, detach from the sludge...focus, detach, focus, detach. As has been written, the dark and dreary seems always to be able to get a foot in ahead of the good. Accept that and be freed to keep turning our focus back to the good.

God knows our needs so this, too, is God's...which he has already healed. Focus.

Thank you.