This comes to me this Good Friday morning, and this I know is my Truth:
No, there is nothing wrong with me as I so often lament...there is and has always been my search for the Father within me, God. Looking back on my life, specifically the '60s in Beverly Hills, CA, that's what kept me from becoming the high-flying EGH's satellite or Doug Whozits girl...my search for God.
No, I do not know what normal is for normal does not spend her life chasing God...normal goes with the normal...and that's fine, but it is not me, and it is not wrong. It is I, be not afraid. Thank you.
All my rues, regrets and remorses were and are but my time wandering in the wilderness...all that time in the wilderness was and is necessary, yes, essential, to my Now, my awakening.
It hardly matters what day it is any more, since the future is so unclear. I sit quietly, and I open my heart and mind for the unexpected. My prayers of the heart are "humility, through mystery," and "peace, through acceptance." –C. Thorman (from Fr Richard Rohr's "Daily Meditation," April 10, 2020)
God loves me so much. You, too.
Thank you.
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