Sometime ago I committed to myself to try "answering not a word" to perceived slights, snubs and snarks. And to carry that off in a pleasant manner...neither a huffy, nose-in-air, spin and leave, nor a happy-face facade.
Clearly, this would have to be God's work, and that was my hope, to give over to God from the inside.
I'm doing so-so...better than I should have expected but not even close to what I now know I did expect.
It may be that I did not follow that mental commitment through to imagining what answering not at all might realistically look like on the other end. Or it may be that this is as good as I can get...which isn't awful, it's just that it is really, really hard work to not work at making a good change...to just trust God and be the change I want. I just pray I keep trying.
Oh my, I just read my "God Calling," and on this day in 2011, I wrote, BFO: if I seek and do as Jesus sought and did, I will be...a free-of-me person. Answered prayer.
Thank you.
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