Happily heavy on my mind this morning is the awareness that my mental foes are my pearls...that which I am mentally resisting is my angel unaware.
Where I make my mistake is in trying to lift me up out of foe country...nattering at myself to not judge, to not take inventories, to not dislike...all of which hold each negative action closer, nurturing it in effect.
Just because, from my eyebrows up, I know better doesn't mean I'm wrong to not burst free on the power of that thought.
We must needs rely on the instruction to sit and wait on the Lord...to sit and wait on the Lord isn't to sit idly doing nothing. To sit and wait on the Lord is to sit and meditate...to let the mind turn within. To find our center, we follow the mind, not lead it.
Maybe that's the difference between seeking still more spiritual growth and not being as nasty as I want to be. Spiritually seeking requires a quiet mind turned inward; behaving myself requires conscious thought turned outward...with the benefit of others as my goal. Ah, there's the key...others.
Thank you.
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