In our chasing after God, the blinding flash of the obvious is that our chasing after God is the wrong we must cease...chasing after God is just another self-determined objective.
Comes the bright light...not chasing after God is the wrong we must cease...not chasing after God is just another self-determined objective.
When our prayer is to show forth loving kindness, we are seeking another self-determined objective. When we must ever remind ourself to be kind, to be considerate, to be thoughtful, self is rowing our boat, and we will not get to the other shore any time soon.
The gift we have and are not acknowledging is all of our needs were met and sealed within us from before conception...ours is to loose them and let them go. To pray to get them is a waste of our breath and God's time.
We recall Meister Eckart's spiritual growth is more about subtraction than addition. To be in God's grace, not pray to be, is spiritually essential...personally unattainable.
There are many ways for us to choose to get us there, but the way I personally know is through crash and burn. That is, my will, my way, my resistant self...masquerading as still more spiritual growth...all reduced to grist.
Feeling naught but despair, we give up our holy sounding wants...i.e., to be a better person, to be a loving soul, to know God in others...and accept that this sorry self that we are is our lot in life. This is the grace of crash and burn.
It is from the ashes of our self-willed wants, that...ever so slowly...Self arises, and, changed by the decision birthed within us, we call it quits. We let it be.
Our previously self-contained loving kindness begins to flow from us without prompts. Others remark on our change before we are fully aware of it. Our mind has been exchanged.
Our outer life is no longer our concern; our inner life, God's hidey-hole, is in charge. Now the discipline begins...the discipline of welcoming. Of welcoming the unwelcome.
We take comfort. Our Father knows our needs.
Thank you.
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