Just this morning, in my mental meanderings, I saw what a dear friend needed to do to fix herself, and I immediately started figuring how I could tell her...in a loving and spiritual manner, I need not say.
Comes now a bolt of light: What I am seeing as my friend's problem is exactly mine, and my fix for her fits me to a T...and I know not how to do it.
Double bolt: I know not how to do it because I have used it for my CYA all my adult life...it justifies my me. Holy moley.
God loves me so much that He immediately gifted me with these two thoughts: Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings, and the Father abiding in me does the work.
I know from experience that my humble ask is my readiness to detach from my self-determined objective of what needs be done. That is the door opener for my Father's work to move me into the action we need to take. The timetable is His, the willingness is mine.
We often hear that we know it is God's will when it goes smoothly, we know it's our will when it does not. That may be true to the reasoning mind, not so much spiritually. Our interpretation tells the tale...going smoothly may be our denial, our avoidance of the ego-puncturing stuff. Not going smoothly may be the necessary crash-and-burn that hurts as it is happening.
As Rohr wrote this morning: It [our egoic self] is what we know and all we know. To move beyond it will always feel like losing or dying.
That is precisely what we are feeling when we are detaching from our shortcomings...when the Father within is doing His work. Face it, detaching from our shortcomings is changing our mind...from reasoning to spiritual...from "mine" to "Thine."
Until we are entirely ready to exchange our will for God's will, we will feel like we are "doing it wrong."
Go beyond reason to love...it is the only safety. -- Thaddeus Golas, "The Lazy Man's Guide to Enlightenment"
Thank you.
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