When we feel resistant...for whatever apparent reason...we now know to dig deeper. We are learning...slowly...that it is our own self that we are resisting, thus it is ourself we must get over. Fear for ourself, the want to protect ourself and the belief that only we can do that, becomes the Start button for resistance.
To recognize that we must get over our own self is to meet the mountain...the jumping off place. Here's where we hold our nose and take the leap of faith of denying our want-to. Our want to stop her, to top him...our want to win. (Our want-to is ego's need.)
Basic lesson: Start small. We learn fairly quickly that to attempt to give over on a matter we've married ourself to is a self-determined objective aborning, our personal hangman's noose. So our first leap of faith is a teeny-tiny step, albeit in the right direction...we give over to another who seems to be wrong. We simply say, "You may be right." Or, even simpler, "Oh, okay."
Amazingly, the within goodwill generated from uttering so few words is all we need to do it again...and then again...and many more times. We rest there, which is heading us in the right direction, until we find ourself ready to move up deeper.
As we rest, a two-pronged lesson unfolds within us. We're not only learning how to get over ourself, we are building trust in our Father, that He has our back. We cannot have the second without the first...we cannot have faith in our Father while holding fear as our justification for self-protection.
I'm guessing this is a rest of our lifetime lesson. Further words would be me putting on airs. What I've written is from my experience, and I'll let it stay that way. This I know: More will be revealed.
Thank you.
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