In the material world we make many decisions daily...hourly, in fact. It's kinda like picking a this or a that...go the grocery now or walk the dog now? I suspect it's our ego that keeps us tied to that simplistic idea of making a decision. So that, when it comes to making The Big Decisions (to marry this one with whom I think I maybe in love? to move across country without a job lined up?), we get doubly confused because in order to make the big decisions is to not rely on our reasoning mind. The big decision is never to marry or not, to move or not, to do anything or not...the big decision is a positive. It is to turn our reasoning mind over to the care of the God we're not sure even exists!
In our reasoning mind world, what we are resisting is not the decision, of course, it is fear of making the wrong decision.
In God's invisible world, what we are resisting is the fear of crashing and burning, a.k.a., surrendering. Surrender by anybody's standard means to lose. That is not a good solution to our ego-victory reasoning mind.
We must go beyond reason...talk about scary! That's where our fail-safe has always been...our reasoning mind. It becomes obvious that to go beyond reason is to hold our nose and take a leap of faith...when we're fairly certain that we don't have enough faith to begin with! The key is in realizing that a pinpoint of faith is a boatload to God...enough and more than enough.
That is God's gift to us, and that is how we come to surrender...wit's end. There. That is the essence of perfected pain...not knowing and making a decision at the same time. Those who have truly hit rock bottom, splatter. In that splatter is our gold for only God can put us together again. Without a thought, without a hope, we let It...we have no choice. We have splattered...we have surrendered.
It's all paradox: We have to lose to win...we must feel hopeless to get hope. And the Invisible becomes visible in our life.
Thank you.
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