I am having the devil's own time getting right with my head and my gut...my head knows that forgiveness/acceptance/love (that is one word) is the answer. My gut, however, is PEEved! And justifiably so, may I state upfront and clearly.
And here comes my blinding flash of the obvious, for which I am not all that pleased, but thank you anyway.
BFO: I'm hunkered down against a cement wall, I am angry, vibes of ugly are spewing from me. I am guarding my uglies, and I am attracting the same ugly right back from any and all who pass by. Across the plaza is the Lord, sitting amidst pots and pots and pots of love...surrounded by oceans of love. I absolutely know I can have all that love and more if I'll just let go of my ugly; i.e., my want, my ego-victory want, to punish, to shame s/he who is the certifiable cause of all my anger.
Like Jack Benny...I'm thinking about it.
Please, thank you, amen.
Thank you.
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