I considered this morning the difference between expectation
and anticipation. For whatever reason, to my ear, expectation has a negative
connotation…but anticipation just sounds happy.
I checked my Websters (I may be the last
person standing who still uses a hard-copy dictionary) just to see the
exact meaning of each word.
Expectation: to look forward to (as a foregone
conclusion)…which to me translates as “to look forward to with dread.”
Anticipation: to foresee and provide for beforehand…which to me is a
hoped-for thing.
In anticipating a complete awakening in God
consciousness, I can know it is taking place within me now. I have no idea
how. It will display Itself through me. It already is.
In expecting an unfolded consciousness, I have my own idea
what that means…enlightened, feeling at peace, knowing sunshine and rainbows.
In other words: getting a whole new me. And right there…that is what keeps me
stuck in my material state of mind. Even in thinking I’ll be getting peace of
mind, loving kindness…all the pretties…I am still in it for the getting. Not
getting these self-determined objectives leaves a vague feeling of “loser”…sunk
by my own expectations.
Be still and know that I am God…I already am.
Thank You.
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