My today's dilemma: An excruciatingly painful shoulder...is my aching shoulder a torn rotator cuff or deeper initiation? If initiation, I accept that doesn't mean it is not a torn rotator cuff, so no surgery. It may be a way to my deeper understanding of life...i.e,. getting through surgery and physical therapy with my faith intact...in fact, deepened.
Thy will, Thy way. Let me be the cause of no self-determined hurt, harm, pain...mental or physical. Lord, hear my prayer...thank you.
Interestingly, this comes on the eve of the holiest day of my experience. I know naught, but I suspect the virgin birth of Mary did not make her birthing pain any less intense. I wonder if her state of consciousness...birthing the Son of God...transmuted the pain? Or does the pain fall under what Fr Richard describes as necessary suffering?
Today is Sunday, Christmas Eve, so no doctors, acupuncturists, or healers are available. Why, I wonder, did this shoulder problem come to me now? Yesterday there was no pain, yet as I went to bed last night, it came out of nowhere...I ached in the night and awoke this morning feeling serious pain.
Thank you for opening my hidden Self to whatever is mine to experience. Amen.
Thank you.
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