ON BEING FORCED TO CHANGE...PRICELESS

That is when I was forced to change. I started feeling helpless, and my confidence was shattered. All that I was left with was faith . . . [and] trust that I was where God was calling me to be. What I began discovering is that every time I allowed myself to feel at a loss in the face of the pain I witnessed, every time I touched my own irrelevance, there was this energy of God that would begin to emerge in our midst. . . .   --  Episcopal priest Adam Bucko, "Daily Meditation," December 9,  2022

Various personal Journal entries: 

7/15/21  Blinding flash of the obvious:  That which we think is wrong with us we finally realize is and has ever been God's will for us...that which makes us whole as our own self.  [Beginning to consciously realize God's will, God's way...which had to have been percolating inside for a long time.]

10/7/21:  Comes a time when we hold our nose and take a leap of faith...we quit quoting neighbors, mentors, friends and teachers...we become less visible, often misquoted, misunderstood, ignored. Jump up and shout Hallelujah! We're on the right road, heading in the right direction.

12/1/22 God's will, God's way is individual to each of us...the way we do our life. What we are is what God's will, God's way has led us to be...when, not if, we try to fix it, listening to our ego, we falter and fail. 

12/3/22 Blinding flash of the obvious: God's will, God's way...don't try to do His Sermon by rote...do me, be me, the me that I am, His way...starting in my thoughts.  

12/8/22 God's will, God's way is burgeoning in me...I am coming to accept my less-thans as my ME...I have not yet sent my thank yous. I did not acknowledge a friend on Zoom as she acknowledged me, and I did not catch it for a week. I simply do not do the socially...civilized?...things. Not as a rebel, not as a radical, as my being ME...neither right nor wrong, me. Ah, the bumpy road to self-acceptance. 

God's will, God's way is showing more and more as mine, my gateway to self just as I am, God's. 

12/9/22  I am the God that speaks to me, that produces nemesis and friend, that solves each perceived problem as it appears...I within, always with me...often activated by my despair, my ego-buster, whatever it shows forth as...and winds up my blessing.  

Realization of our oneness in God is the only cure for human loneliness. --  Caryll Houselander, a British mystic, popular religious writer and poet.

Thank you.