ACCEPTING OUR FIRST WANT

 Recently, I came across four questions we need to ask ourself...the first one being, What do you want?

On reading that, two of my wants came to mind immediately...the first was personal for me (of course), and it was a get, for the glory of me; the other was spiritual: What do I want? I want to realize God personally in my life. 

It took most of two days for me to settle on to realize God personally...then another day to inner know I meant it. It was like pulling hen's teeth to shuffle my glory-want out of first place...simply to downgrade it to second. (I may need to ride herd on my inner meaning it.)

Finding the spiritual good in our personal debris may be as elevated as we can expect to get in this lifetime on this plane. It's hard enough getting there which encourages us to settle there...but isn't that to limit our God? Accepting...no, resigning ourself to...our current conception of God as permanent, or as good as it is possible to get, locks us into our mental safe house, self-secured and, improbably, a tish anxious. 

To find the spiritual good in our personal debris, and in that moment...Now, in a word.... to invite it to be our inner guide to self-acceptance of others seems not very likely, impossible to conjure up, hence mayhap God's will. 

Our want must be greater than our grasp or what's God for? (With paraphrased credit to Mr. Browning.)

Thank you.