All our unknown answers are held for us within our unconsciousness. And, per today's "Daily Meditation" of Fr Richard Rohr, We can’t get to the unconscious logically, literally, or mechanically. We have to fall into it...usually by suffering....Until our certitudes and our own little self-written success stories begin to fall apart, we usually won’t touch upon any form of deeper wisdom.
Ah, this uncertainty I am in is the process of realization. Realization is not a one-shot deal. We see Truth, we understand it, we get it...but it is useless until we prove Truth through realization. The proving is our every day welcoming of our unknown, unplanned, unexpected life. With or without anxiety.
It's akin to walking through a briar patch...we get that walking through it is going to hurt, so we think about it, talk about it, ponder, analyze, teach!...but until we step out into it, until we are showing not telling, realization is just a word.
Apparently, this is my path today...the path of unknowing, the scary-to-the-reasoning-mind path, where we prove anew daily that which we have realized before, only it is deeper today. This feels very like my early years when I was told to not talk about my anxiety but I did anyway because I had to. It was that that drew to me others who were silently suffering anxiety.
Oh my..."God Calling" today: ...remember that the varied path does not always mean that you need the varied training. We are seeking lost sheep--we are bringing the Kingdom [to others].
There it is. We think of suffering as being for our ego-deflation-in-depth...which it is, but it is also for the benefit of others. When God's hand is in it, all of us come out the winner.
I pray my thank you because I suffer today for the benefit of others, knowing others suffered for me to bring me to my sacred briar patch...to walk me through my sacred briar patch.
We are blessed beyond knowing.
Thank you.
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