ON GOING AGAINST THE REASONING MIND

I often get questioned when I say that we have all the patience we will ever need, all we need do is use it. I believe the same goes for love. Since the Father lives within, when we pray for patience, for love, where do we think He goes to get it? And doesn't it follow that humility is right there, too?

I used to pray to be a more loving person and then would go right on being the same self-absorbed soul that I ever was. Until I became aware that I could be of help to others just by listening to them. That's when patience came unbidden...it was needed so I unconsciously used that which was there within. Love, too, of course...that's how love is set free. We are called upon to use it, and without thought, we love.

I'm not so sure about humility. There used to be a saying, If you think you have humility, you don't. Which may be true, and it may be just another clever saying. There have been a few times in life that I truly felt humble which is different from the times I have felt humbled...which is how I came to the belief that humiliation is humility aborning. Which kinda takes the sting out of the memory of being humbled...it was for a good cause.

Then, too, we are ever reminded to love and laugh, though I wonder if that isn't backwards. I feel I need to laugh at the whole megillah before I can love it. Ah, but what are laughter's roots but love? Since God is love and God is all there is...wonder no more.

It is said that we are what we seek. I'm guessing we prove that true in short spurts...the times we use the love stored within by loving an unlovable, by being patient with the trying one. Those flashes are humbling because, mercy, they certainly go against the reasoning mind.

Thank you.