Feeling unloved, unneeded, unwanted and unappreciated is just a feeling, it is not a fact...and that feeling comes by invitation only.
I once said to a friend that I'm in trouble when I start feeling unloved, unneeded, unwanted and unappreciated. Weeks later she wanted me to tell her again what those four "things" were because she loved them so much! There it is...the things that turn a teacher's hair gray.
Those four "things" are not something we want to hold onto! We do not want to hunker down with them...because for sure it hurts so good when we do. But that's what makes forgiveness so difficult for it is nigh impossible to lift our self out of that warm glow of self-justified hurt.
That four-pronged feeling must be the nesting place of ego. I can all but see Lucy preening in her unloved state, choosing which someone to blame, wallowing in unwantedness, swelling with the self-importance of being so unappreciated.
I know this for fact: If we're feeling unloved, unneeded, unwanted and unappreciated, we cannot be feeling gratitude or grace or God's love. We're feeling self, plain and simple. In other words, rigid, righteous and right.
As Jesus could have said, "Give me a break."
Thank you.
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