AND STILL I WONDER....

[The following is reworked from a reprint of a blog of mine from July 12, 2012.]

Who was I before I chose to feel hurt?

How do I become that whole me again? Or was I whole then?

How do I shuck my shields?

Why can't I shuck my shields at will? Or can I?

Is it a matter of will...or of grace? Is it my choice...or am I chosen?

If one is chosen, aren’t we all chosen?...for God cannot play favorites.

If Truth, to be true, must be proved, and cannot be proved by sheer will, how does one prove Truth without an act of will?

Is it as simple as making the decision?

Thank you.