Nearly a month back, a new acquaintance e-mailed me just making contact, suggesting we get together. I reply e-mailed, suggested lunch, and thought that was it, her turn now. I got no response and felt like a real grown-up person when I went ahead and called her. And left word when she wasn't there (which I would credit me with an ego-denier except for the fact of caller i.d...there's no secret call-and-hangup anymore.)
Again, she did not respond, and (here's proof it truly is the teeny tiny little things that block me in spiritual growth) I mentally arm-wrestled with my better self for nearly two weeks before I contacted her the third time.
I did call her again, she answered and was delighted to hear from me, she'd gotten side-tracked, etc. It is amazing how right I felt about myself for denying my ego more than once.
What I need to remember is that she did contact me first, no doubt making it a lot easier for me to overcome my ego-resistance in reaching out repeatedly...or more than once. I like repeatedly...three times counts for repeatedly, and I'm taking it. A saint I ain't.
Thank you.
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