I have about a half dozen things nattering me right now. As I read my "God Calling" this morning, I saw a note I'd written on this day in 1998...listing three or four things that were nattering me back then. By "nattering" I mean doing my thinking for me...living my life, slapping me upside my head.
All those things from 16 years ago resolved themselves...none enough for me to even remember if I hadn't written the note. In short, they had no substance. I realized that the things on my today's list are exactly the same...not real. They live only through my resistance to what I am seeing...my interpretation, really.
I am grateful that I know the way to "loose them and let them go" is to welcome them. Let them be by seeing them from a different angle...a "thank you" angle versus a "damn you" angle.
I'm a tish disconcerted to realize I have no idea how long it's going to take me to get on the other side of my own resistance. It's times like these that the reasoning mind says, "But this is real...this has nothing to do with spiritual growth."
And I'm smack dab...yet again...up against the fact that all life is a journey back to God...it's all spiritual growth.
Thank you.
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