ALL THAT IS REQUIRED

I got over myself yesterday…in a conversation with a person who had bad-mouthed me and wasn’t sure I knew. We were able to have a pleasant conversation, and I in no way zapped her with my knowledge…and I consciously made that choice even while we talked.

In like situations in the past, I have either shot really ugly zingers (and suffered the remorses of a dog beater), or I refrained from retaliating in kind only because I couldn’t think of anything not ugly-mean but sufficiently clever enough to make my point. So I would show nice then go home and shoot zingers at her to my bathroom mirror.

There is no permanent growth in practicing “good behavior” and thinking attack thoughts...according to me, and I speak from personal experience.

My job now is to keep my thoughts reined and turned to God…to grow loving thoughts toward that person in particular and to not entertain the inevitable ego-driven attack thoughts that will sneak through.

Here’s why that is so hard: All that is required of me is that I go to God for God. That is all.

Thank you.