Today is my belly-button birthday...and all is well with me and with mine.
Looking back, I know that the greatest gift I've ever received is the gift of surrender...which came wrapped in fear since surrender is brought about by the ego and the reasoning mind both giving up. Giving up figuring it out. Giving up finding a solution (one that won't hurt). I was forced by fear to ask for help. There it is...fear as my friend.
It comforts me today on my birthday to know that if I never have another blinding flash of the obvious, if I am never given another intuitive understanding, nor receive another deeper thought on a higher plane, I'm fine and will be fine with that. I would miss them, miss having the peace those guidelines give, but I would not be endangered by their lack. Because surrender taught me to ask for help...to let others see my ignorance and laugh in the face of it. (My laughter permits their laughter. They laugh and I don't...whole 'nother story).
Today I have good orderly direction...printed, published and approved of by people I respect. All I need do is follow the directions...and know that it is not wrong to ask questions if/when I'm not sure. The very best part: Today I know from my toenails up that I will ask for and I will follow the direction I'm given...at least the majority of the time.
It's gratitude-in-my-heart day.
Thank You.
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