AWAY FROM SELF...TOWARD GOD

 As Ilia Delio wrote in her poem The Christic,  We are trying too hard to find You, but You are already here....

Doesn't that say it all? 

Does that stay our continuing to "try too hard?" Of course not. "Trying to find you" is my version of walking in faith. "Trying too hard," according to me, is simply trying...trying to make conscious contact with the God of our understanding when we're doing it right.

My hard-earned belief is that we must try with a will or fall by the wayside to get to the realization that too often trying is a self-determined objective that blocks the perfect objective which is of God. 

Long ago I read then wrote about spiritual growth going in circles and cycles and there's my proof. When I first read the Sermon on the Mount and "got it," that is the glimmer of gold that I "got." I only love it.

Since then, that glimmer has been growing smaller, moving me backward, raising more questions...which is It, i.e., away from self, toward God. 

We are trying too hard to find You, but You are already here.... Yes! And long may we try.

Thank you.