WE CANNOT GO THERE ALONE

It was 26 years ago today that I again crashed and burned...gave up, gave over, gave in, and in the doing, thought that God may not know my name. Further, because God may not know my name that I had to seek help from my last chosen place for me to seek help. 

So, I did. Turns out, the last place I wanted to seek help is just another hidey-hole of God's.

Today, again I am feeling blocked. So I start anew...give up, give over, give in. The difference is that I'm not just hoping now, I'm knowing now from my own experience. I know and I know I know...when asked, God's will, God's way comes to our aid. To know unto acceptance: To our reasoning mind, it usually comes looking less-than, but invariably, i.e., spiritually, that, too, is for our benefit.  

The hook, I learn repeatedly, is not in the knowing, it is in the doing what I'm knowing that births freedom from the bondage of self. Yet, I do not know...I do hope, but I do not know...that I will do it.

Here is my today's understanding of my Rites of Initiation: First step: learning, self-accepting what I'm learning, doing that which I have learned, failing, admitting it, getting up and going again...repeatedly...until I get it right for today. 

Second step: Remembering the First Step in toto and doing it with a grin. 

Third step unto infinity: Same as the first two steps. 

OR...as Thaddeus Golas wrote in "The Lazy Man's Guide to Enlightenment": Go beyond reason to love. 

There...all the great truths ever written, wrapped up in five words: Go beyond reason to love. 

Sacred secret: We cannot go there alone...thank God. 

Thank you.