Learning to love may be the hardest task I've ever been given...to love indiscriminately without selection, protection or preference.
I accept myself as a "rank beginner" on the spiritual ladder of life, but learning how to love openly is a whole new venture. The best I can do at the moment is to want to...I want to learn to love without qualifiers. Not him, her, them, a pet, the moon, nothing but the walking-around feelings of giving not getting as my motivator. Already I've gotten on the self-determined-objective track.
I love giving the advice, Just Do It...giving the advice to others, that is. Ah, but when I say it to me, my answer is usually HOW?
When we are met with a what-to-do, the best we can aim for is to do something about something. The stupidest thing I ever heard when first I heard it, the pearl beyond price to me today.
I'm becoming anxiously, dubiously, foot-draggingly aware that learning how to love is all about putting the other first...or self last is The Word without the bark on it.
Reasoning-mind simplified...just accept everything we become conscious of. There...precisely why reasoning mind gets us bupkis when it comes to love.
The final answer is our acceptance of everything and everybody, but the first lesson is that only God can get us there...and only when we go to God for God and that is all. See? Reasoning mind just backed out...or blacked out.
I love getting all up in my head, writing it all down, coming to the conclusion that I'm right where I started...only now feeling comforted.
From clueless to comforted by grace and by God...love and laugh.
Thank you.
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