Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted. -- Matthew 5:4
Well. We learn a whole new and lovely way to look at rues, regrets and remorses...they are mourning. I'm rereading a book on the Sermon, and that finally spoke to me.
For whatever reasons, it seems this is where I am now...in my feelings of being all alone and to blame. I am immediately catapulted back to my dark days which form today's rues, regrets and remorses.
This I know...to continue to pray my thank you for the lost me of yesteryear...for she is still leading me to God. I ask and ask again, what else turns us to God so quickly but the dark days of our own self? Naught but fear, and I am God-peaced by my ask and by my answer.
I remind me that the day-before-yesterday, too, often qualifies as a dark day...when ego did my thinking for me, and I went along as if I never had heard of God or resist not and the like.
This is where my new-found comfort, mourning, pays its way...instead of butting my head against my wall (my will), I feel blessed knowing that this is mourning, that I am mourning.
Not being entirely stupid, we know that it is important that we realize the blessing from a different angle. Face it, called by any reasoning-mind name, rues, regrets and remorses will badger us until we are spiritually detached.
Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted. We joy in that promise for it is the gateway to detachment.
Linger not, walk through, pray thank you.
Thank you.
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