Where is this God being revealed? Not in the safe world, but at the edge, at the bottom, among those where we don’t want to find God, where we don’t look for God, where we don’t expect God. — Richard Rohr
There it is, plain and simple, our idea of good and God's will are two different things entirely. The good news: God's will is aborning; our idea of good is receding.
Basically, our idea of good has been whatever we believe will benefit us personally. We dress it up as "for the good of humankind" or, even better, for the way holy, "for the good of my enemy." Unquestioning, we bask in the warm ego glow, knowing that is of God.
God's will is where we don’t want to find God. Face it...where we don't think to look...where egoic mind cannot accept God could be found.
True story: In the early '90s, a dear friend was diagnosed with breast cancer. A lotta, lotta begging went into "take it away, God, please, please, please."
He did not.
However, in the medical prep, her entire body needed to be X-rayed and lo! A just-forming cancer was found in her lung. If not for the first finding of cancer, the second would not have been found early. According to her doctors, the 99 out of 100 percent chance would be of her dying from lung cancer later. Lung cancer was at that time, and maybe still is, the primary cancer killer.
God's will, God's way...both cancers were successfully removed, she is cancer-free today thirty some years later. Who, being prepped for breast cancer surgery, would think finding lung cancer, too, might be a fine reason for gratitude?
My hardest lesson a-learning? Accepting the truth that praying for God's will to be done regarding a self-perceived need is still a self-determined objective...not necessarily of God. Then trusting thank you unto living it is sufficient.
Thank you.
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