I often say that the hardest thing life will ever ask of us is that we change our mind. Fairly often I will receive the quiet word: We cannot change our mind, but God can and will...whether we seek it or not.
I hesitantly admit that I wrote in my journal just this morning that I am having my mind changed...which was news to me even as I wrote:
I am becoming willing to be the first to give over, give up, give in...not by self-will but by grace and by God. My egoic mind is not stupid...it is trying to insert itself for the glory. So far I have been brought back...to let God peace my mind and my heart toward another.
Further, it is in today's God Calling that it is written: Stop thinking your lives are all wrong if you do not feel it. According to me, that is one of the most important sentences in the entire book. I suspect many of us doubt purely because we do not feel it enough,
Ah, I am brought into the fullness of trust, and I am realizing that trusting God is not a seamless feeling of peace, love and joy.
Trusting God is often realizing the love I have within me, whether I feel it or not, is held within me at the ready for the unforeseen need of another. The other being the one arriving in my consciousness at the moment and, face it, the one who is often. and for real, a reasoning-mind rejectable.
Trust can never be self-generated; it is, however, generated from within. We hug it and kiss it and never let it go even...especially...when we do not feel it.
According to me, that's called, giving God a grin.
Thank you.
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