SELF-DETERMINED OBJECTIVES TRANSMUTED

Today, right now, I'm convinced the two most important words I need to live by are nonresistance and forgiveness. Wanting to live there and being willing to trudge there is my test.

The main block to what we think and what we do is our incomprehension of how it is we do what we are wanting to do. Like, how do I carry off nonresistance? Forgiveness? On the face of it, to me both look pretty much like the Buddha...doing nothing, just sitting there all fat and happy.

In my experience, though, and my experience is limited to my trying to carry either off, I find there is no sitting there, no doing nothing, fat maybe but not necessarily happy. Actually, neither happy nor unhappy about it...straining may be the right word.

Nonresistance is easier on the surface...we can look nonresistant by actually doing nothing, but we know, our innards know. If we are not thinking, feeling, doing and being love, our nonresistance is just another self-determined objective. Which, never forget, is better than being as nasty as we want to be.

By simply conceding, we know we are showing nonresistance, but outside showing and inside knowing are two different things entirely. I'm guessing the test of spiritual nonresistance is how forgiving we are feeling, how forgiving we are showing forth.

Forgiveness seems a tougher slog, mainly because we don't know if we've even done it until after the fact. In the end, doesn't the same go for nonresistance? Face it, spiritual actions per se are a tough slog for the human condition...they all go against the egoic mind.

Paradox alert: When does a self-determined objective become God's will? When we realize we must try with a will or fall by the wayside.

We pray thank you each morning that for this day we are willing to be nonresistant and forgiving.

Want to counts, willing is necessary, trusting God is essential.

Thank you.